Nobody warned me that getting saved without understanding equals to total madness?

One of the reason that I got saved in NOT because I lost a reason to life and its purpose as such BUT because I got attracted to brotherly love that I experienced among a group of saved young adults and teenagers (youth). It was all so honest and pure just loving the Lord and serving him.

When I got to high school I was so convinced that Christianity was the worse thing that could ever happen to me, church was a place that I never saw creativity, majority were retired men and women, younger people were just there to be seen and not heard yet again missing going to church was not acceptable at all. The Pastor or who ever they were called were so boring that they themselves slept before they started their sermons Oh my God woe unto them that are still subject to this kind of slow motion religious homes.

Church did not have anything challenging or new to look forward to at all. Church consisted of people that looked dead in the inside. . . . . . With lots of local announcements and money collecting projects being planned for, it was like a Baraza La Wazee BUT just in a slightly different context.
Little did I know that I would move from boredom to complete madness!!!!
I have to accept that I was attracted to something new that surely I saw in this Pentecostal oriented church that I went to BUT other things came along with it especially when I started interracting with other radicle pentecostals, lots of more things came.

There is a preacher who says to date that it’s only in church that you get many mad men and women who do things because they saw others do them but would not fully justify why they do what they do. It’s only in the church that intellect and enquiry is not considered a gift YET God himself said . . . . . . . Isaiah 1:18 Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. This clearly is telling me that the free gift of salvation is a fruit of negotiations and free will to accept Jesus as Lord and savior......do it in understanding and in Godly wisdom! Please I stand corrected BUT someone, anyone tell me of any process of negotiation that does not involve intelligent conversation and asking of questions especially, how much more with our God the creator of the heavens and the earth? Why don't we christians like being questioned, what do we have to hide?

The ability to reason is taken and thrown away lest you see through the manipulation that goes on in some churches, scriptures are used to intimidate and create fear within the brethren . . . yet God used his word to instruct and guide his people. Jesus preached nothing but love and the kingdom of God. I really am not sure who we follow as we lead the flock of God.

It’s only in the church that people consent by lifting up their seats and jump with loud instruments as an accompaniment, you would think that a demostration or a protest is going on. It’s only in the church where people hug each other and toxically gossip about them, it’s only in the church that we kill our own wounded and throw them out in the cold when they most need us to stand with them. We keep saying "they have sinned" YET the bible say that all have sinned and fallen short of God's glory . . . . . . . and who gave us the power to judge or condemn . . . . . .what makes us think that we are better sinners than the others?

You know even in the natural like terms tend to rebel so each time you keep off someone because you so think they are embarrassing or feel they have done something against the beliefs of God most likely you are just one of the same feather. Jesus accommodated especially the so called sinners and the outcast of the society. He never hanged around the honorable Pharisees “MEN OF GOD”. In fact he had no value and anything good for them check THE BOOK basically because he knew their hearts and that automatically over shadowed their deeds. Read 1 Matthew 23: 12 - 33. So if you have been so highly excalted this could be the right departure point, do a review and decide who you trully want to be in the kingdom of God.

It’s only in church that people preach what they cannot dare practice, people give fake testimonials even when everybody knows so well that it is not true and we all say AMEN which means let it be so, you know like we desire that what you just said would be!

It only in church where I heard people speak a strange language that they had no courtesy to interpret to meaningful words of wisdom for the edification of the people. When I desired to speak the same again for reasons i may not know I was put in a room and told to repeat some words after which I would just flow in the “spirit”, well well I failed BIG TIME to flow by the way and I was told to continue to pray and fast, confess my sins and then I would be able to speak in tongues. Let just says that God has his ways of doings things . . . .

Church came along with falling down in the name of being prayed for to receive, Imagine your earthly father pushing you to fall in order to receive what you have asked him. I believe that some times the spirit of God can cause you to fall down BUT not being forcefully pushed to fall down inorder to demonstrate the power of God. Personally i have recieved great breakthroughs and miracles in the church just by believing and not being laid on hands to fall down? Interestingly enough you know when your actions are just for the eyes to see rather that out of true power of the Holy Spirit. . .

Church is full of lazy people who have been made to think that the pastor has solutions to everything YET the veil was broken at Calvary on the cross by Christ and the same power and authority they have is given to us all. I have no problem sharing and praying together with the men in authority as the bible advises BUT I question the inferiority mentality that most christians have and it makes them feel that God never hears them.

Luke 6: 38 Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.". HOWEVER it is only in the church that people are told to plant different seeds to reap a totally different fruit. Good people of God we can never be able to pay God for anything he gives to us, please understand that you should give because it is biblical principle/command or out of just good will but not to earn a favour from God. Who paid for our health, peace, deliverence or whatever it is while yet we did not have money to give? We cannot buy God's promises from Him . . . . His promises are Yes and Amen just claim it for yourself.

God is God and he owns all always have that in mind as someone is squeezing your neck and twisting your arms to give. When you need to be so pushed to give does in mean that we disobey the spirit of God who will freely direct us when and to whom to give to and for what to give for? People its just in the church where you will plant money to reap healing or peace or whatever or even deliverence. I think we have reduced God to such low levels, that surely who would want or desire to serve this God that we so portray to the world. Jesus just healed people, he just walked and did his thing which was to build the kingdom of God among us. 2 Corinthians 1: 20 For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God.

As I write all this please understand I love all brethren BUT people of God let us just learn to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. Lets seek to know God as he is and not as he is presented by people around us. I know for sure that God is NOT crazy and all the madness that we see out there has got very little to do with God Almighty. Let us learn to find out why we say the things we say, ask yourself why we do the things that we do.

Did you know that what manifest in the natural shows what is happening in the spiritual, therefore brethren before we blame our political leaders and everybody else we may want to blame . . .what role have we played in the whole chaos? If we have done nothing to make the spiritual realm organized oh no we are yet to see more and more drama around.

Change begins with you and I who may know little better than others . . . how will they know unless we tell them? Unless we ourselves live it?

Prayer:

Lord we thank you for your light that so shines in our hearts and lives. Today i pray that let wisdom who laid her table right at the beginning during creation be and live in us today. The wisdom with whom you created the earth and everthing in it therewith may be our guide. AMEN

Proverbs 8
Wisdom is calling out for men . . .

Thoughts by sally.